Thoughts of my son...

This morning when Jovan got out of bed his mind was already moving and thinking!!! He showed me his shorter really non-functioning leg and basically said it was going to grow like his other one. I told him that leg would always be smaller and that is why he was getting a wheelchair to get around with. Jovan was born with Sacral Agenesis. That means absence of his sacral..which is part of your back and spine. That's just the lump definition I have.

There are different degrees of Sacral Agenesis..Jovan does have two legs..very little legs. One he uses with his arms to get around..he is hunched over . The other leg he uses as a balance because his rear end is pretty flat. He will uses a wheelchair as his mobility to get places. He has never talked about his body before today.. I hope and pray that God will help me with the correct words to say to him. Like I tell him he has had seven birthdays..but he is VERY small for his age. It's hard to explain that God made everybody different and someone very special to God.

That is my sweet son and the thoughts he had...last night was about getting money to bring home his new brother. This morning he said he wasn't going to school..he had to get money for his brother. :) So cute!!! He went to school because he loves to go. Also he told me that Kristina would have to go to school!! :) He is kinda bossy!! :)

Better go and get some things done before I run around doing errands around town!!

A Quick But Meaningful Post...

I have to put some yawning kids to bed in a few minutes.. But I wanted to take a minute to remember people who have touched me in one way or another through our adoption journeys. Do you all know that I have chldren? Sometimes I just smile and thank God over and over again for my children. Anyway, there is one person that has worked the hardest, more then anyone else I know! She is the person in our children's country that worked so hard to everything done to adopt our children. We love her very much...and I can't go on because I can't get emotional! :)

There are people that I have developed friendships with that have also adopted from the same country.. Special people indeed!! They are people that I continue to pray for!! It just seems like family.

Some other people that have touched me may never know. I read blogs..LOVE to read them!! LOVE to see other families come together!! I love to pray for them..and see how God works in their lives! It's AWESOME!!

Today I was blessed by a woman I just met through my computer screen. She sent me a picture of our precious little son! I will blog more about that later...she is there on a mission, along with another mom. Gotta go..typed fast didn't check sp errors. THANK YOU for all who have touched me and I pray God will touch you too!!!

Easter Pics...


The kids posing for a picture during the Easter egg hunt.

Jovan collecting his eggs. Mittens are to protect his hands..not for the weather. It was a beautiful day out, just perfect!

Kristina picking up her eggs..we had designer bags not baskets! :) We love Target!

My smiling little gift from God! She was so excited for Easter..and being thankful for Jesus. She does not quite get the whole concept but pretty close. Jesus died for our sins..God gave his only son! For us!

A kinda silly picture of us for Easter 2010. Hope you had a great one! We sure did!!!

Waiting...

Waiting is so ? Sometimes it's easy, but I think for the most part it is hard!! Especially waiting for a child to come home through adoption. When a "tummy" mommy has a baby, she watches he/she grow from the very beginning. She can "carry" that new baby within her from the very begining. An adoption is hard because you don't see your child grow..he/she is far away, not able to be "carried" anywhere. I am not feeling sorry for myself or anything like that..but for me to think of a little boy so far away is hard. And waiting to get him is a hard thing for me to do..

I know where he is..I know what he looks like..I know how he smiles..I know what he sounds like..I know how he walks..I know so many things..I do not know when he is coming home..

So, I do not talk about our adoption as we are ready..just trying to finish gathering the pennies to get him. My heart sometimes just breaks for him. I broke down in tears when I saw this teddy bear the other day. I hugged it and cried..and of course ended up taking him home to be the buddy for my new son. See, my new son has everything he needs..clothes, toys, and even shoes. All of those things I thought were going to be for his brother that we brought home last fall..but his brother is much much smaller then I figured..so now we have all of those things. My first son has a lot of hand me downs. :)

Anyway, I thought I had better say something about our adoption and where we were with it. Waiting, and waiting some more. Praying and praying some more. Trusting God more and more! Thank you God for your perfect timing in bringing our new little boy home...

He is Risen...

He is Risen Indeed!!! Happy Easter Everyone!

What do you do?...

What do you do when your heart has an ache that does not go away? What do you do when you follow God doing something that seems so hard? What do you do when there is a little boy ready and literally waiting for his mommy and daddy and it's the rest of the funds that are standing in the way? What do you do when you think of the years, months, weeks, days, and every minute that he has been waiting? What do you do when you try to wait patiently on God's timing?...

Pray..and trust God! Please pray with me as it is so hard sometimes to wait patiently!! All in God's timing...

My Husband...

The man that God picked to be my husband is the best in the WHOLE world!!! He worked SO hard while I have been sick! Actually sick quite a lot since coming home with Jovan! It has seemed sometimes discouraging at how much I have been sick since the begining of the year. But my hubby has stepped up to the plate and ran with all of the responsibility there was to handle!

I do love that man very very much!! In one month and four days we will have been married twenty years!! It does not seem that long..like just yesterday! All of our adventures, excitements, disappointments, and even lose that all have made up who we are.

Now we are a family of four going on five God willing. Now our lives are no longer just the two of us. It is amazing to see how lives change..my hubby is an awesome father. Kind, gentle, loving, silly, tenderhearted, and just plain a great dad! He is a little soft on discipline however! :)

That is my husband and I just plain LOVE him and glad God picked him just for ME!!!