Change...

Okay, as you can see I have changed the look of my blog...so for now it will be this way until I work on it some more. Not too bad as my favorite color is green and it reminds me of newness. The newness of one's self, spirit or life. Guess that is what is going on for me. Death does that to some people. My life has be changed forever but I am looking for newness in my life and asking God to bless me with it.

I will just chat briefly and move on to more exciting posts about the children. You all will like that I am sure. God has blessed me with the feeling of peace and joy. Right now as I type this I am in the room that she passed away in. Peace and joy...can still hear my daughter giggling when she and my grandma would visit. Boy, did Kristina love to play dress up and put on my grandma's babushkas. (scarfs around her head) Kristina would put on a fashion show when she would get new clothes. It was so fun to see...like kindred spirits they were.

This year in my many years of life I will not have my grandma to fix the traditional Christmas Eve dinner. She was a Greek Orthodox with a great relationship with Christ! But a Ukrainian dinner it was! Perogies, Borchst, rye bread, and other things I can not spell...oh, and herring. I know how to make this meal...but I have been sick...like not getting better sick and this meal takes a lot of work. Not complaining but if my grandma were still here she would tell me to lie on the couch, no wait she would make me help her first! So I have conceded to making the Borscht and buying the Perogies. Next year I will try to make everything...my first New Year's resolution!

My life is new, everything about it. I still plan meals around what my grandmother would like, movies for her to watch and things like that. God has given me a peace that only he can give. I can smile when I think about the way she passed away completely peaceful and so orchestrated by God. I can not thank Him enough for that and I will forever be mindful of that! God even takes care of the little things! I took pictures at the graveside and my mother was so thankful as she was not there! I thought she would think it awful...but I just felt lead to take pictures and I did.

So now on to the children...


That was on Thanksgiving day 2011! So cute they are! More posts and pictures to come!